Paineen alle murtunut

Liitävä pilvi taivaalla.

Se kutsuu minua.

Huutaa luoksensa.

Mutta ei.

Yhteiskunta estää minua menemästä pilveen ja sen luo.

Vain koska pilven nimi sattuu olemaan pilvi, en voi mennä pilveen koska kaikki pitäisivät minua narkomaanina.

Ahdistava jarrutus todellisuuteen.

Olisi mukava elää taivaalla.

Leijua vain kevyesti.

Mutta ei.

Maailma vaatii meiltä ahkeruutta, työmoraalia, korkeakoulututkintoa, hyvää palkkaa, arvostettua työtä, kaunista/ komeaa puolisoa, Arvovaltaa ja auktoriteettia.

Ahdistaavaa, kuinka käteni ovat sidotut.

Tunnen. Etten ole mitään.

Kaiken tämän paineen alla.

En ole mitään.

katkeruus

No point to keep going.
Seen them coming.
Seen them leaving.
Just the same old song.
Ha. empty an used.

Don't want to hear it anymore.
Will not carry on.
Staying here.
Need to rest.
Need to find the serpents nest.
Have to kill this.
Must slay it.

Walking to the end of the line.
Reaching for the light.
Waiting for the saviour to come.
Need someone to talk to.
Want someone to hold on to.
Screaming alone in dark.

Standing in the rain.
Alone in cold.
Waiting someone to come.
No one comes and i know it.
Accepting the depressing fact.

I've been high.
I've seen the light.
They won't say it out loud.
They can't know how i feel.
Just trying to help.

Everything that you all say.
Eventually hurts.
Lower.
Deeper.
Darker.
This is the pitt.
This is the place that people has been talking about.
There is no hope anymore,
Just need a hug.
Just need a word.

Let me have something to hold.
Let me have something to live with.
Just give me the reason to keep going.

Now i'm just watching.
Stepping aside.
Walking away.
All alone.
No one is calling me behind my back.
No one is toutching my shoulder.
This is the way.

There is nothing.
No dreams to give away.
No words to share.
Nothing to be prepaired.

Alone.
Standing in the rain.
Feeling cold.
In dark alley.
Empty and alone.

Viimeinen Uni

All your friends bleeded you to stay.
All you said was just a shadow in her light.
Everything you did that day.
Has been forgiven.
All things has been said.
Now you can start all over.
Now you can be Tabula Rasa Again.

Still.
Even you siad you're so strong.
I see weakness in your eyes.
Still I know it hurts you.
Somehow you know that it won't never go away.
It will always just stay.

On a Valentine's Day you saw her kissing.
Some other guy in front of you.
I know how it feels.
When we were watching it happening.
In pieces.
You fell.

I've never seen such sorrow.
I know there was truth in her lies.
You knew it too.
Misery.
Anger.
Hate.
Sorrow.
Depression.
Death.

On this autumn.
I stood on your grave.
In a cold autumn-wind.
Your gravestone.
It's carved.
So beautiful.
I lower my knees.
And touch your grave.

I know that now you're gone.
And I know that the deed is done.
And I'm sorry that i let you go down.
So if you hear my words,
I hope that you'll have your peace.

Goodbye friend.
I'll let go.
It's harder than it seems.
You were so close to me.
But You will never die.
You will live in my heart forever.
You showed me the way.
that wasn't right.
I lost you too early.
Your grave is so empty sight.

Sleep tight.

Ajatus

Oljenkorsi tuulessa.

Ei kanna huolta huomisesta.

Ollappa vain olemassa.

Yhtä helpolla tavalla.

Mutta ei.

En kai osaa olla ajattelematta.

Orava tippuu kuolleena oksaltaan.

Mutta ei se osannut surra kohtaloaan.

Oli vaan.

Osaisipa itsekkin vain pudota.

Sen kummempia surematta.

Mutta ei.

En kai osaa olla ajattelematta.

Haava

Ei kulta, en osaa lentää.

En parantaa havaa, puhaltaa.

En lohduttaa tai auttaa.

Suruasi helpottaa.

Mutta muistan ajan helpomman.

Päivän kauniimman.

Tuulen leudomman ja aavan ulapan.

Nyt se on vain kaikki painunut pohjaan.

Ei sitä tainnut olla koskaan.

En enää voi uskoa muuhunkaan.

Odotan vain tulevaa.

Kunnes joku sinutkin parantaa.

Ylös nostaa ja puhaltaa.

Koska ei kulta, en osaa lentää.

En hakea sinulle tähtiä taivaalta.

Tai planeettoja avaruudesta.

En osaa lohduttaa tai auttaa.

Suruasi helpottaa.